Dear Adoption, I Just Want to be Heard
I think. Sometimes, I pray. I talk myself into it.
This is always the lead up to me beginning a conversation, hitting send on an email, or clicking post/share on social media.
The topic: Adoption.
And then, inevitably, with unwavering consistency, the pushback begins.
Argh. Why?
Why?
Why can I not share freely without someone interjecting their feelings about my feelings.
Yes, we are all entitled to our own opinions; on politics, education, parenting, etc. But we aren’t entitled to an opinion on how another person should or should not feel about their own experience.
Okay, Adoption (adoptive parents, adoptive families, non adoptees), allow me to give you a small sampling of what I’m talking about…
When I talk about something I am grieving because of adoption, you say:
“But look at all you have!”
“Those things weren’t meant for you.”
“This is better.”
When I say I’m unsure if adoption has been and is ethical, you say:
“Well, we did the best we could.”
“No one else was going to adopt you.”
“Would you rather be living in that orphanage?”
“You would have died if we didn’t adopt you.”
When I wonder about my first family and my culture, you say:
“We did the best we could.”
“God chose a different family for you.”
“Why aren’t we enough?”
“What’s wrong with us?”
“We tried to help you grieve. You were always allowed to grieve.”
“Remember who was there for you. We were.”
“Would you rather be with people who didn’t want you than with us?”
“You sound really ungrateful.”
Every conversation played out above has actually occurred in my life and there are many, many more.
Since I have the floor, this is what I want to say without any pushback:
I’m not ungrateful.
I’m not crazy for wondering about my first family.
I’m not dishonoring my adoptive family by grieving or desiring the things I am missing.
No one knows where I would be had I not been adopted. No one knows if I’d be dead, alive, thriving, suffering, healthy, ill, poor, wealthy, happy or unhappy.
My experience as an adoptee is personal to me and no one else should tell me how to feel (not even other adoptees, but especially not non adoptees).
I should be able to talk about adoption without adoptive parents, adoptive families, and non adoptees becoming defensive.
My need to explore my heritage isn’t connected to whether my adoptive family was good or bad. It’s a natural need.
I can be happy with the life I’ve been given and mourn the life that was taken away.
I can decide if I’m okay with adoption or not. Just because adoption was a part of my life doesn’t mean I have to be on board with it. I get to decide.
I just want to be heard without being judged and accused of ingratitude and looked down upon.
Can you hear me? Can you stop and just listen?
I just want to be heard.
Thank you. You are heard. I hope that my adopted sons will always feel that they can speak, too.
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Nice approach
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Reblogged this on The Missal.
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Being married to someone who was adopted and had found out that I have a half sister( we are both half korean) who was adopted way before me, I hear you.
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Now this is kind of good.
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Great piece of writing👏👍
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Thank you for sharing with us all and wish I could wave a magic wond and make things better x
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Dear adoptee, I hope you will be able to reconnect with your birth family. Blessings from another South-Korean adoptee.
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I can’t agree any more with you
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I’am listening
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Thanks for sharing. Hope she finds what she is looking for
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I wholeheartedly agree with your sentiment here. While my situation is a bit different (I was raised by a wonderful man whom I consider my father) I spent my life knowing there was a man out in the world who was SUPPOSED to love me, want me, and simply didn’t. When I attempted to express these feelings I was met with much of the same commentary you were. Bottom line, it doesn’t matter what anybody says or thinks. You’re entitled to your thoughts, feelings, questions, doubts, etc.
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😄😵😖
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Everyone deserves to be heard and to be their own story. Good post. 🙂
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Amazing
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You are heard. Excellent post. I have relatives who adopt their child and I never consider how they might be feeling. This is a different perspective. I think it’s your right to be curious about your previous family. It does not mean you are ungrateful at all. I empathize.
We sometimes, or often, wonder about the previous ones with what-ifs. Have you ever tried talking about this to your adoptive family?
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Very interesting and insightful – love this post xx
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I hear you. You have my full attention. I’m praying that your family can see you for you and not what they want you to be. Search on and find the pieces you need.
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Beautifully written would like to read more from you!
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This is such a great blog, and one that I can almost exactly relate to. Being adopted from Seoul South Korea has left many doors open to unanswered questions. I would love to chat more about this perspective. Feel free to check out my blog, and maybe this is an opportunity for us to answer questions for each other. If interested, I am always willing to guest blog.
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You are definitely heard. This is so powerful and so right. I have not experienced this and I am grateful that my eyes have been opened to this perspective. Thank you
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This is lovely
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O like how you said in your blog about God can choose a different family for you. And yes indeed that’s so true wonderful work.
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Reblogged this on Norman Vincent.
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Thank You dearadoption
Fantastic blog
Good luck
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Beautifully written!
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Cool
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you are heard. Your vioce is loud and it matters. As an adoptee myself I know everyone have a story to tell but not everyone have the courage to do so.
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I started a blog about adoption too. really hope all the adoptee our there can read and know that you are not alone. website: myamazinglife292.wordpress.com
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Thank you for sharing your thoughts. You’re heard. We support you with your journey to self-discovery.
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You are totally heard! I’m adopted and i was separated from two of my sisters and brothers and it breaks my heart. I used to be allowed to see them but now I’m not allowed. I’m nearly 15 now and i just want to be allowed to see at least my sisters. Is that too much to ask? I love them and miss them. I love my adoptive parents but that doesn’t mean i won’t question my birth family and wish i could see my siblings. I really understand how you feel, I’m in foster care at the moment and I should be going back to my adoptive parents next week xxxxx
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really touching! I have a blog about adoption as well feel free to read. I am new so looking for other people to connect with! follow me at twoworldsonegirl.blog. love reading your stuff
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mother of adopted children.
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I hear you. God bless you.
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Reblogged this on PSYCHE CAFE and commented:
yep….. i hear ya
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I want you to speak freely. I want you to share. Sharing is feedback that this world needs to do better. I am with you Mind, Body and Spirit.
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Wow, this was amazing. Your voice deserves to be heard
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