Dear Adoption, What Can I Do?
I picked these words because they are how I feel about being adopted and about my birth family. I don’t understand why I didn’t get to stay with them. I have half brothers who got to stay.
Lost – If you are born in one family I think you are supposed to be there but I got lost in a different family.
Confused – Am I supposed to find my family when I’m grown up so I can join the family again? Do I only have to stay away while I’m a kid? I don’t know how long I have to stay away.
Worried – I am worried about if I can find them and if they want me to find them. I am worried they want me to stay away except I’m also worried they don’t want me to. I feel bad that I can’t stop feeling worried and that they are worried about me too.
Guilty – I love my family a lot except I feel guilty that I think about my old family so much. I keep this a secret because it will hurt their feelings and make them feel bad. I wasn’t good for my old family and now I am no good for my new family. If I try to not think about them I feel guilty too in case they are thinking about me.
Upset – Talking about this makes me upset and I don’t want to. I will hurt the people who love me and take care of me. I am gonna be upset guilty worried confused and lost forever. Nobody gave me a choice. What can I do?